Sunday, September 27, 2009

Everything I'm Not

"I feel like the girl who ditches a cocktail party to see a rock band play."

It is like
Twilight star, Rachelle Lefevre can see a part of my soul. I don't know how or why, but I've always been easily influenced by the media. Don't misunderstand, I'm not one to easily give in to peer pressure - in fact, the more you insist I do something, the more I get pissed off and my odds of snapping at you are much more raised, especially if it's something I seldom do to begin with or don't like.

I used to have a startlingly amount of confidence in high school, in fact, an ex said I was borderline arrogant. I don't know what happened when I went to college, but I lost all of that and I want to know why? Just because I switched locations and am surrounded by much more politically conservative people does not make ME less fabulous. I never used to let what insecure, sometimes trashy girls said get to me - so why the hell is it now?

Sure, I may have horrible eating habits, I may not go to the gym, I may procrastinate, but I work hard. I managed a successful sorority recruitment, and not to sound cocky, but I'm pretty. Why am I letting other people get to me? I have ALWAYS been ridiculously insecure, but at least in high school, I managed to mask it well with my arrogance. I need that back. Spending time with my wonderful Big Big, Emily made me realize that.

In regards to my life-changing healthy year, it's safe to say that the junk food junkie, lazy bones in me is still there. I haven't had time to do much because of recruitment, but now recruitment is over and I can get back on track. I still procrastinate, but not nearly as much as I did last year. Small changes.

The plus side is that I have an internship now! I'm writing entertainment blogs for, which is a great site for college students (directed at women) and incoming college students. There are many different topics discussed and it's super beneficial and fun :) Check it out.

I promise to be much better with blogging in the future.
Julie and Julia inspired me to take it much more seriously. It's a great movie and if it hadn't been done, I would try to cook through Ina Garten's cookbooks (and gain 900 pounds). I love the Barefoot Contessa :)

Steelers play today! Recover from that loss, boys.
Pittsburgh Steeler Time!!!!

"Everything I'm Not" by The Veronicas; 2005